depressed

[CrazyClare]

well its Christmas time and im really depressed. Ive been fucking up my medication and its all my fault. When i get depressed like this i cant concentrate and im gonna do really bad this semester. I thought Id start a thread where we all bitch. Sort of like group therapy, but without the annoying therapist. So start bitching!!

[billyio]

I have 3 papers due by next week for my classes and I haven't even begun to start them. I'm tired of procrastinating. I'm tired of letting my life passively pass by. However, I happen to be happy or rather,content. I just want to do something though,damn it. Kind of like a self-revolution. Anyway,back to the procrastinating.

See Ya!

[Death Metal Moe]

I feel depressed everytime the holidays come around, but my problems are my own and I don't feel comfortable talking about them.

If it helps you, you are not alone.

Life it crule and short.

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If it helps you, you are not alone.

I don't think that song would help anyone. What's gotten into you?!?!?

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[sr71blackbird]

I get depressed trying to walk through the close confines between the clothing racks in the stores. Whats up with that? Dont wheel chair bound people need to shop too?

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[CrazyClare]

I think we all need to make an effort as a group to make Moe feel more comfortable.

[keithy_19]

Clare, its normal for people to get depressed during the holidays.Just think about things that make you happy. Unless your like me and you can't seem to think about the good things in your life. Then I would resort to drugs.

*note that i'm kidding about the drugs

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and by drugs i mean illegal drugs

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[furie]

i've never felt depressed, but i do get very stressed around the holidays. family obligations and such.


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and by drugs i mean illegal drugs

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[CrazyClare]

listen im sick, i have a depressive disorder my illness is not rational so dont worry about me, ive made it this far, my goal is to stay out of the hospital this Xmass. Im not looking for sympathy in this thread, just venting.

[sr71blackbird]

Anytime u need to talk, let me know.

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[sr71blackbird]

Also, my office is having a Christmas happy hour and party this week, but I havent drank any alcohol in 3 months ( was having a bit of a problem with it for over a year) and I dont want the temptation. How do I go and be festive with all that pressure and abstain at the same time?

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[FUNKMAN]

i took the Giants and the 8 1/2 points and the 1st half over(20 1/2)...

that should make anybody feel better
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it was just a little bit of money but they are losing by 38...

and my tummys too big...

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[Alice S. Fuzzybutt]

Clare,

I hear ya! The holidays depress the hell out of me. I miss my parents so much.

But, hun, you need to get your meds straight. I know, if I miss my daily dose of Effexor, I'll get the "zaps" and I'm irritable and out of sorts.

After that, surround yourself with good people. And don't be hard on yourself. It's not easy being depressed. Hell, the medical field still doesn't know what to make of it. They used to think of it as an "acute syndrome"; meds and therapy until the patient stablizes. It's more kinda like diabetes-- a lifelong disorder. So get your meds and head in check, ok?

There's way too much pressure around the holidays to be happy. It's all bullshit. So much stress leading up to the actual day, and it passes like any other. I often think, "Great, another 365 until the next one."

Oh, and New Year's Eve? DON'T get me started!

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[Death Metal Moe]

After that, surround yourself with good people.


Translation: Stay away from Moe.

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Too late. You can't be that Moe any longer.

YOU'VE SOLD OUT!!! HUGS AND BACON FOR ALL!!!

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[Death Metal Moe]

I can be whatever Moe I want. Because the huggable bacon lover and the Hellspawned Hate-monger are one in the same.

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[CrazyClare]

how do you feel about turkey bacon? I think its yummy.

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Turkey Bacon
It looks like bacon but it is actually all white and dark turkey meat. Available in retail or food service, turkey bacon is packaged in 6 ounce and 12 ounce vacuum packages. This product can be sold under a private label or control brand. Sugar Creek's Turkey bacon offers similar taste and look of the national brands at a lower price. Also available in beef and pork.

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[CrazyClare]

since this is the confessional i will confess i like turkey bacon better than regular bacon. Not including Canadain bacon. THe best bacon is Irish rashers, it really is quite amazing.

[Death Metal Moe]

Turkey bacon is BLASPHEMY!!!!!!!

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[TheMojoPin]

Hellspawned Hate-monger

It's not as badass as it sounds.

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[Death Metal Moe]

Why would one trying to make people fear him decide to incorperate a dunce cap into their costume?

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[TheMojoPin]

Dude, he's Hitler. 'Nuff said, true believer!

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[Death Metal Moe]

Well I definitly don't measure up to Hitler, so I guess you've got me.

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[high fly]

[quote]Well I definitly don't measure up to Hitler, so I guess you've got me.



Maybe so, but you make Mussolini jealous.

" and they ask me why I drink"

[Iamnotatool]

We're all fucked up. I wish I was in the minority...

Please don't hold my huge nutbag against me, or I'll hold it against you that you have flapjack tits

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MERRY CHRISTMAS!

[sr71blackbird]

I was enjoying my Irish friends fathers breakfast one Sunday morning when I was a kid, scarfing down this fried meat thingee he made. After he was telling me how they make the Blood Pudding and I started getting naucious. But damned to hell, it was good!

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[Bill From Yorktown]

I am 37 years old, have a son who is 2.5, and my wife 2 days after thanksgiving announced that she doesnt want to be married anymore.


anti-comedy pyramid.


details to follow if you want 'em

edit - on a good note, I'm down from 215 to 204 in the past 2 week (yes I know it's not healthy but if I can lose 14 more over the next 2 months then maintain it I will be much happier)


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[sr71blackbird]

whoa, good luck Bill! Im sorry to hear about the problems at home. Chin up, little buckaroo!

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[Bill From Yorktown]

(take a look at the subject line Leaving for more info)

anyway - so who's been on what meds and what did you find?

I'll start - Zoloft for a year - yea the side effect they mention is true - able to get a woodie but it was a lot harder to get off - dont suggest drinking at all while on it - it hits you hard. All in all it was ok but I'd reccomend something else.

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I usually don't get depressed but my alter ego, Sinbad, does. Right, Sinbad?

I shoulda never left "A Different World"!!!


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[Iamnotatool]

Weed and Ecstasy.

I found that they fucked me up. I forgot why I was depressed. And got horny. Also, Cocaine is great lure for strippers.

Please don't hold my huge nutbag against me, or I'll hold it against you that you have flapjack tits

[sr71blackbird]

Id lay off the exctacy, I hear it alters your DNA.
My doc has me on Trazadone for anxiety (was having trouble sleeping, glum moods, etc.) and he gave me something new today called busPIRone, which he says will help with stress during the day. I let too much shit get to me.

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[high fly]

Holy shit, Bill! That's quite a bombshell.

I'll take this opportunity to depart for a sec from my "board character", since drugs have come up, and I, uh (straightens tie) have quite a bit of experience in this area. I've also been around the block more than a few times with "the black dog".

There's a great misperception one easily falls into when depressed, and gets high to relieve it.
You get loaded and it feels better and you feel sorta relieved, or so you think.
It appears to be helping.
What I think really happens is that the drugs get you down even more- it's like they make you more susceptable to being depressed. It's as if they open a door.
So you get high to relieve the blues, and you get tricked into thinking that's what's happening, but the TRUTH is, the drugs just hold that door open even wider and you spiral down even farther, the more you get high.
They're very very insidious that way.
You THINK you are having sharper, clearer thoughts on the coke, but it's just a lie.
You THINK the weed is alleviating the pressure, but it's just a lie.
You THINK the acid, shrooms or other psychedelics are helping you see deeper and have greater insights or be more creative, but, again, it's just a lie.
Mr. Bennington put it beautifully recently when he went on about how that stuff is just poison and the effects are just you being poisoned.

Your brain is designed to work at peak performance in it's natural state.
Eat well, dwell on healthy, positive thoughts.

Leave the dope to the dopes.

" and they ask me why I drink"

[Snoogans]

what if you dont believe that the drugs make you feel better about your problems, but just use them cause you like being fucked up?

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[TheGameHHH]

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[sr71blackbird]

then your a "pot head"



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[Mike Teacher]

Clare, et al

Some things that may not have been discussed;

-Time of Year: I don't mean the holidays, I mean your feelings are co-inciding very nicely with the fact that we are nearing Dec 21st; shortest day of the year.

We're in the Dark part of the year now; and it affects us all on a real level, irrespective off SAD of other stuff. The shadows are long at 2pm; its dark by 5. In July at 5pm we have 3 hours of Sun left.

Sure affects me.

I read this year a book Jerri Neilsen who wintered at the South Pole. My cousin went to anarctica in the Army. Long story short, people 'toast', the term for the zombie-like state that they all fight against, and that takes some quite out of the person they once were. We don't get it as bad, but the fact that it really seriously fucks up a very large percentage of those who winter there says a lot.

A final note; my theory on some aspects of depression. I inhabit my body. This 'me', this 'I', this 'Ego' senses this in a real way. This is the creature I inhabit. I can feel quite apart from that creature, and there is nothing unusual in that at all. In fact, I think that's exactly it. That's the norm. Our lower functions and emotions are tied in at a level. Exactly why some have these problems, at a particular level:

We really can't control our minds. Simple. We have brains with higher functions, but there are some parts that we know are utterly out of any control whatsoever that we might wish to have.

This seperation may be some of the cause of the feelings that people put under the umbrella of 'depression', and 'anxiety'. The seperation is normal however, for me. It's how we are. Our 'selves' and the body we inhabit.

Anxiety: This creature that I inhabit is sending signals to me that I am going to fucking die if I don't get off this elevator in three seconds. Why can't I control this?

What to do? Develop a relationship with this thing that you can't control. This part of our minds. Relationship meaning begin to look at yourself, and the parts you can;t control, and seeing what we can do in a real way to get through the rides that our brains might take us on. We can develop real ways, in out higher brains, to sort of "Talk Down" the lower part of our brains when they decide to take a ride to Panic Land or "Talk Up" the part that decides to go to Depresso Land.

The realization that we do not control some parts of our brains was THE revolution in Psychiatry. People who were seen as 'at fault' for being schizophrenic. They obviously Must have Done SOmething Very Very BAD to get this way! No way this self-inflicted damge can be helped. After all, they did it to themselves, somehow!

Next patient!

My God this is the way it was; and sadly, for too many, still is.

This is quite apart from people who actualy DO bad things. All of the lofty talk above is no excuse for me to run over the person the person who just gave me the finger. I hope I am making any sense whatsoever.

To those on Zoloft, and those hearing of those on Zoloft: For me, this family of drugs, that no one really knows or understands, [please don't tell me of seritonin reuptake, thats a chemical pathway, not a reason some people kill themselves.], is doing Something that is similar to the 'talk up/down' I referred to above, without the actual talk. When it works, wonderful. We can debate overprescription another time; there are people who literally could Not leave their Rooms until they discovered this stuff.

Sometimes, for the short term, or even long: Any port in a Storm. My estimate of getting across percentage on this one: 40%

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[Alice S. Fuzzybutt]

Blood Pudding


sr71blackbird, my parents were Russian and ate the foulest things! Pigs feet, head cheese. BLOODWURST (which is head cheese with blood poured into the gelatin). I come from peasant stock.

And what's busPIRone? Is that like Buspar? I was on Trazedone to curb the anxiety I had when I was on Prozac the second time (first time worked like a charm, ironically!)

And, Bill, I'm so sorry to hear of your marital problems! As sr71 said, chin up buckaroo! Hang in there!!



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[sr71blackbird]

Apparently it IS buspar. Ive been reading up on it since the doctor prescribed it! From what it says here (http://www.mentalhealth.com/drug/p30-b03.html)it looks like it might help me during the day, without being a sedative. He gave me a free 30 days supply to try, I took one today, and Ill start tomorrow. I use to get the "zaps" you describe with the Effexor if I missed a dose timeframe, which was very weird feeling. The Trazadone doesnt seem to have that effect to me.

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i heard alot of these medications work alot better when taking with either weed, rum, or both

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[Mike Teacher]

And what's busPIRone? Is that like Buspar?


Yes; not sure on the exact spelling, but Buspirone is the name of the 'active' the chemical that's doing what it's doing. Buspar is the brand name. Pretty sure there are generics for it.

Buspar is not an SSRI; and again, no one really knows exactly how it works.

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[Mike Teacher]

i heard alot of these medications work alot better when taking with either weed, rum, or both


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i heard alot of these medications work alot better when taking with either weed, rum, or both

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[CrazyClare]

meds......
Ive been on a lot this is my current cocktail.
Now Im on prozac (ive been on it since i was 12!)
WEllbutrin
Buspar
Neurontin
and seroquel.

To tell you all the truth I hate being on all these meds, they make my hands shake and me twitch, i also get night sweats. I hate having to depnd on medication. Mosrt people tell me I shouldnt be on so many meds and I need to get off them, but I really need them. MY meds for depression, anxiety, and my problems organizing my thoughts (due to depression). The seroquel is for sleeping, i dont know how to fall asleep anymore without it. The reason why im so depressed right now is because ive been drinking and smoking too much weed. Im not even supposed to drink at all on the meds i take, I could die, but i still do. I could also cause permant liver damage. My depression caused a "moment of clarity" and Im not drinking or smoking anymore. Hopefully quitting all this will get me out of this depression.
Bill Im sorry to hear your not feeling well.

[high fly]

Hang in there, Clare!
We love you!














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[Bill From Yorktown]

first marriage counselor session at 6:30 tonight.

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[high fly]

Those things are great, Bill.
Nothing like-em to prolong the agony.
Check the diplomas on the wall, I bet you'll find the "councellor" has a degree from the Hanoi Hilton.





" and they ask me why I drink"

[Iamnotatool]

Clare, my offer still stands to pump ya in the rump if it will help. Medically speaking of course.

Please don't hold my huge nutbag against me, or I'll hold it against you that you have flapjack tits

[Bill From Yorktown]

Bill Im sorry to hear your not feeling well.


Thanks. We had to reschedule last night at the last minute and I was a mess for a couple of hours. Right now I can SO feel my manic/depressive cycles. I was starting to go manic on Sunday, and peaked Monday into tuesday. Yesterday I could feel me coming back down towards neutral (which didnt help me being able to deal with last night). Today I am just below neutral heading towards bottom, most likely Saturday.

I am trying to stop that from happening, but having all these unresolved problems at home doesnt help. I am not sure if I am at the point of meds again, but time will tell. All I know right now is I can't focus at work at all, and that is not a good thing.

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[high fly]

Clare, my offer still stands to pump ya in the rump if it will help. Medically speaking of course.

you have flapjack tits


Get back, Tool, back I say!

I'm in first place for that ass and you're just going to have to wait your place in line.

Clare, you don't have to take that flapjack shit from anybody. Besides, it ain't true. Those breast of yours approach perfection. Just slightly larger than those of the Venus deMilo, perky as a Mouseketeer on cocaine, go ahead, look at-em in the mirror, they just scream for the caresses of hugh fly, don't they?

And don't forget, I've got LOTS of money...





Oh, and, uh Bill, ahhh, er, uhh, (mumble mumble mumble).



" and they ask me why I drink"





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[CrazyClare]

good luck Bill, family therapy reaaaaaaaly helped me. If it werent for that my mother would have given me up to a grouphome, therapy can work wonders, just keep your mind positive!

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[Johnny Fontane]

Now Im on prozac (ive been on it since i was 12!)


Clare, let's go back in time. The year is 1995. When did you first realize that maybe something just ain't right?




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[CrazyClare]

when i realized I wanted to kill myself and had a plan. Thats the big warning sign to mental health professionals, when a person has a plan on how to kill themself. IT means they've thought about it enough times to take it seriously, as opposed to the less seriously fleeting thoughts of it everyone has.

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[sr71blackbird]

Its sad that your on all that medication and STILL get depressed!

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[CrazyClare]

isnt it just a kick in the pants?

If you only know how much money has been dedicated to keeping me happy. Ive spent about a year of my life hospitilized, prices have changed over the years but its about 1000 dollars a day for inpatient hospitilization. Add the monthly price of prozac from 13 -15. then at 15 meds were added avgd about 500 dollars a month, 16 that doubled to 1000 dollars a month. My meds still come to a G a month before insurance. Therapists and psychologists since 12. All these resources to keep me alive, its hard to describe how this makes me feel. Even after all this I still feel like crap sometimes.

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[Johnny Fontane]

Even after all this I still feel like crap sometimes.


Maybe you should stop the meds and eat lots of chocolate eclairs or something. I had a bunch last weekend and they made me feel good - I think.

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I hope you're doing OK.

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This message was edited by Johnny Fontane on 12-18-03 @ 11:34 PM

[CrazyClare]

im ok, feeling a little better everyday. ive made it this far dont worry bout me.

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[Bill From Yorktown]

It's over Johnny.


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[Bill From Yorktown]

um, I am in a lot of pain right now. Please bear with me.

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[CrazyClare]

what happened?


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[Bill From Yorktown]

she never made another appointment. When I tried to discuss, it became an argument and we fought. I made her cry over it. This is not going to work. Ever.

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[high fly]

I hope this is good for you in the long term, Bill.

When it came time for me to get divorced, we didn't have the sense to just go our separate ways.
Oh no, we had to get back together, fight, break up, get back together...etc.
This went on for almost a year.
Also, this may not apply to you.
I'm just holding it up as an example.

Plus, there were no children involved.



And Clare, all (above) kidding aside, please do whatever you've got to do to continue getting better.
We're all with you.
There's nothing wrong with asking for help, understanding, or a shoulder to lean on if you need it.







" and they ask me why I drink"

[Bill From Yorktown]

I posted some updates in THIS (http://www.ronfez.net/messageboard/viewmessages.cfm/TOPIC/34494/FORUM/81/page/Leaving___.htm) thread so I wont rehash here. So, who's on what meds and who likes what? My counselor and I discussed if I wanted to go on them again fora while while things are rough, so I am going to see a shrink next week (if I can get in) to see if I should.

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[Bill From Yorktown]

starting lexapro today and now 100% on the wagon.

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[CrazyClare]

good, my prozac just got upped to 80 mg a day. who knows maybe in six weeks ill be miss mary sunshine!

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[Bill From Yorktown]

you know, after years fo being sarcastic sammy, I kind of look forward to being happy harry.... anyway we'll see if this works better than the last round (the current doc thinks I might have been undermedicated last time anyway...)

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[Iamnotatool]

after years fo being sarcastic sammy, I kind of look forward to being happy harry




How about just being plain old Bill from Yorktown, buddy.


Stop being Sally Schitzophrenic.






Please don't hold my huge nutbag against me, or I'll hold it against you that you have flapjack tits

[Bill From Yorktown]

wow for once i'm in the clique - if you're not you may not "get it" but - long term marginal depression sucks. We're not talking the "kill the band kill your family kill yourself" stuff, but more the looking at the bad side of things stuff. I can see how my wife is tired of it all the time, and it's time I at least dealt with it on some level.

That's all. I dont think I am bipolar, but what I have sucks because I try (subconciously) to compensate for the lows with a brief manic (high) period of 2 hours to 1/2 a day, followed by 1-4 days of "down" again.

Sucks.

Hope these meds and the counseling help center me a bit.

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[Iamnotatool]

if you're not you may not "get it" but - long term marginal depression sucks. We're not talking the "kill the band kill your family kill yourself" stuff,



I feel for ya Bill. I really do.










But, your posts make me want to slash your wrists, and then my own.

Please don't hold my huge nutbag against me, or I'll hold it against you that you have flapjack tits

[Snoogans]

isnt it fun. i dont know why, but i get down sometimes. it seems like the smallest shit that doesnt really matter can be upsetting.

and before you say it, when i feel upset, i make a point not to smoke, so its not that.
i dont know, kinda had a shitty day and i just thought id share

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[monsterone]

always remember the only memorable words from az:

... cuz life's a bitch and then you die. life's a bitch and then you die. that's why we get high. cuz you never know when you're gonna go...


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[Snoogans]

yea but i dont get it. like a couple good things happen, and im in a great mood, and then one bad thing happens that i dont think should matter as much happens and the whole day is ruined

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[monsterone]

the shitty days only make the good ones seem great. springs acomin' snoogs, you know what that means? boarding in t shirts and getting sun burnt, yet spending a day on snow.

if that doesn't cheer you up, you have no soul.

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[Snoogans]

sorry bro, the knee is fucked up. even if they are still open next week, i cant board, and golf is a couple weeks away.
right now is bleh and i dont know, everything either seems normal or shitty

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[JPMNICK]

I am going to the range tommorow night. Try and get the stroke back.

[monsterone]

i actually want to hit the range this saturday. and snoogs, you can board until may. depending on who far north you want to go. killington stays open until the end of march and tuckerman's ravine in nh is backcountry with snow until the end of may.

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[JPMNICK]

Are you going to come golfing this summer with me and snoogans or do you live to far away?

[Snoogans]

im tryin to go to sleep ya bastards, stop keeping me interested.

and btw, i may be goin saturday to great gorge around 1, its like 50 bucks with cart, ill post tomorrow night if i am.

i just got the email that says they are open


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[monsterone]

i'll guess you're in jersey also, so there might be a possiblity of a golf weekend. roadtrip baby. but i have to get a lesson or 2 to iron out some kinks. zing.

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[Snoogans]

you dont need lessons.

keep your left arm straight, and look at the ball to the point you see the club make contact and youll be fine
aight im really out, thanks for the BS, it helped a bit, peace

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This message was edited by Snoogans on 3-5-04 @ 12:48 AM

[JPMNICK]

Get to the course smoke a blunt in the car so you are not nervous on the first tee. It will loosen you up and you will make good contact. Seriously though, the number one problem is swinging to hard. When you tense up, the club shortens and you don't hit it well. Take a deep breath and relax right before you take your back swing. practice at the range. it helps.