most life altering experience

[AngelAmy]

it could be good or bad...in my case, it was bad... the thing that made me look at my life and realize that you only live once and the one thing that took away what was most important to me was when i broke my leg.

it was january of 98, i was running home from school. for some reason i didnt stop running and i kept on going, right into the street. thank god i blacked out before the car actually hit me, i cant imagine how painful it wouldve been if i was awake. according to the police report i flew backwards 22 feet and i landed underneath another car, which was stopped at a red light. when i came to, i really didnt know what happened to me, i was in a state of shock so it hadnt accured to me that i was in any kind of pain. its a scary feeling laying there knowing you got hit by a car. i couldnt feel my leg and it was cold. a few people rushed over to me to see if i was ok. i remember looking to the side and seeing blood, from my head, running down the street. it took the amublance 45 minutes to get to me. i was in a daze well into the night, until i got into the room to wait to get into the ER which didnt happen for a while. Im not going to get into the 1 week in the hospital, the 1 week at home, the 5 months on crutches, and the months and months of physical therapy. all i know is that breif moment of getting hit by a car changed my life forever.

*i cant play soccer anymore, soccer was my life. that one thing that made me me, the thing that made me complete. losing soccer was what i believe the beginning to my depression.

*my leg is all fucked up, i cant kneel down on my knee. its also very sensative since i have nerve damage from me knee down to my toes.

*i have a pin and four screws.

it's an experience i wouldnt wish on anyone. every time i think about it, i still get a bit choked up. i cant watch soccer anymore without missing it. something new that happens with my leg reminds me over and over every day just how much one second can change your whole world around.

i look back on what happened to me and realize just how lucky i am to be alive right now, you never know when something will happent to change your life forever

and since i dont want to be totally negative ill post a good thing as well. i think the thing that has changed me a lot believe it or not is oa.com and rf.net as well and ron and fez. if you knew me before i signed up to the boards and have seen how much i have changed throughout the years because of the great people who i have become friends with. i have a lot of people i have met almost 3 years ago who see me as a little sister and they have seen their little sis grow. i dont know where my life would be right now if i hadnt met some of the people i have. i am greatful for all of you.

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This message was edited by AngelAmy on 7-4-03 @ 7:57 AM

[Tall_James]

The good...

Watching my daughter being born. Nothing like it, nothing could compare to the joy of it.

The bad...

I was the only person around on a rainy night during a hit and run, and the elderly lady who got hit died in my arms in the rain.


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[phixion]

good- my breother got stabbed on Rikers Island. And as i sat wit him in the hospital i asked me to love and take care of his daughter as if she was my own.

bad- the day my brothers baby mother decided me and my family could never see the child again. it felt/feels like i lost my own child. thus the pothead in me was reborn.

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[FUNKMAN]

Good,

for me it's one word, Mom...

Bad,

also one word, Bill Gates... well actually two words
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just kidding

a real low point for me was getting kicked out of the Navy after 4 weeks of booth camp(i told this before) My Mom and Dad threw a big going away party with Lobster Tails and Filet Mignon, maybe about 50 people. The day before i flew out to San Diego i partied with my Spanish neighbors(almost got laid) with a "gift gram" from one of my older brothers friends. Soon as we arrived in camp they took a peepee test(never dawned on me) 3 weeks later they were telling me goodbye.
I took an express bus from SanDiego to NJ, took 3 days. I made up some excuse to my parents about an ankle injury which caused me to miss the training class i was supposed to start right after booth camp and I had the option to leave.
I don't think they believed it but never pressed me about it. I've grown to realize that they were glad to have me back home.

I was having a great time in the Navy meeting new friends and I was in "good shape", passing all my tests and runs. One of the first nights there were 80 of us recruits sitting in a circle, with the Company Commander, and we all had to introduce ourselves. There was alot of mid-westerners and when it came my turn I stood up(with Joisey accent) and stated my name and said i was from Jersey City(no lie) the whole group went OOOOOHHHH!
I smiled, my face turned red, and I sat back down. I was suprised.

if there's one thing i learned it's "KNOW WHEN YOU ARE GETTING FUCKING PISS TESTED"
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[Friday]

breaking off my engagement.

it has taken me a long time to discover just HOW life altering it was. and I learn a little more everyday. And the experience has helped to mold me into someone who I respect and have a great deal of confidence in.

And the only regret I have is the pain that I caused. It's NO GOOD to be the breaker of a heart and destroyer of someone elses future plans.

But it was a GOOD life altering experience in the end.

And it was my alone-ness that brought me to be an active member on this board. So all of you benefited....you lucky bastards you! hehe.....


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[carguy]

Bad- I had an engine explode during a drag race. I crossed the line at 130 M.P.H. and put it right into a wall. It gave me a permanent back injury and pretty much ended my drag race "career."

Bad- My best freind and love of my life died of cancer three years ago, she was 23.

Bad- Some asshole decided to run a red light and hit me while I was on my bike. Left me with a broken leg, seperated shoulder, and fucked up my back even more.

Good- Buying the car of my dreams from my grandmother when I was 13.

[dcpete]

bad- having the most knowledgable doctors in my area look at me and my disablity and say they have no clue whats wrong, it's getting worse, and they don't know any treatment. Eventually it took away alot of my life(amy i too lost soccer before my body started to regress i was an allstar goalie, now i can barely walk any distance without falling).

good-after this event i fell into a deep depression. i was pessimistic about everything there was no good. but there was this one girl shannon who just asked me one day "why aren't you happy about anything, you should be happy". Somehow this got me thinking, and i realized that i shouldn't be so down and get happy. From then on my entire outlook on life changed...carpe diem and all that shit. that one sentance did more for me than years and years of therapy. I haven't thanked her for it yet but i am in july when i see her again. If you learn anything from this it's that just one sentance can change someones life.

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[Reephdweller]

Probably the most life altering experience for me was when my mother had bypass surgery. It all came about very quickly, we had gone to the doctor to check up on her and the doctor. I worked a later shift at the time 11-8 so I took her in the morning to the doctor, it was a relatively routine visit so we thought nothing of it. Then her doctor then told her she was very concerned about her heart rate that she needs to go to the emergency room. We left the doctors office and I drove her to the hospital, both of us freaking out. I ended up calling off for the day and stayed with her all day while they analyzed her and gave her all kinds of tests. Days later when they operated on her at a different hospital it was one of the most frightening times for me. This was all happening so suddenly.

Then almost immediatly after the surgery I saw her, she was still totally drugged and she had no idea who I or anyone in the family was, but I'll never forget this devestated look on her face, it was the saddest and scariest thing all at once.

That experience made me value life and those that I love. I appreciate my family and care about them and my friends all the more because of it. Some people tell me sometimes that I seem to go above and beyond the call of friendship and that I'm caring, and giving and whatnot, and I believe it traces back to this experience. I want those that mean a lot to me to know how I feel about them because you never know when they or yourself might be taken from you.

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This message was edited by reefdwella on 7-14-03 @ 8:32 AM