Reflection

[sexy bastard]

I had posted this in my journal and wanted to share it with everyone.
SOmetimes in life things happen and changes your life forever, and also we sometimes think our problems are bad but then realize others are far worse then us. I just wanted to pass this on to just make those of us who feel hopeless or helpess maybe give a moment of reflection on what we do have.
I am here sitting at work and me and my co worker were both talking and I remember this homeless man that about oh almost 2 years ago when i started working at my job, I was helping him out I felt bad for the guy he told me his sad story of his problems that made him homeless and he was afraid to go back home and he did not know where his family was. Well since I use to be a private investigator I asked him all the info he had on his parents and of course to be safe, asked him for his own id. So doing the research I did find his family, I told him and showed him where they were. They were living in Baltimore Maryland. Well the last thing he said to me was "I can go home." And I told him "its time for you to go home" he shook my hand and I never saw him again. I just started thinking about him cause I wonder if he made it home ok? I dont have the info he gave me so I cant find them and I am thinking of going home and looking thru my stuff to see if I can find his parents address so maybe I can write there and see if he got home. I dont know it just bothers me I guess I dont know if he ever got home.
I hope wherever he is, he can call it home and I hope he is ok.



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[Christy]

Awwwww .... that was so nice of you! ;-)

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[sexy bastard]

i thought i told you that on the phone once?
and christy you know what an emotional sap i am so you know what i am doing now

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[erole]

that was a good deed. if your heart is moving you to try to see if he made it, you should see if you can find that information. <P>
But, you don't have to. what you did, your action, your decision was the most important thing. whatever happens to him next, happens. what you did, lives in you forever. your kindness and love for another is the most important thing. damn, you did a good job there. now i'm even more pleased to have met you. <P>


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[sexy bastard]

thank you, and your right its a little scary but I think for myself to have some sort of closure maybe I should try to find him and or his family, just to know if he made it home...I have thought about him a couple times since this happened and same feelings go thru me, my coworker says it was amazing moment to see his eyes light up when i handed him the info. And the look on his face and his eyes were amazing it was like a puppy dog you know. But in another sense I dont want to be disapointed if I do find his family and found he is not there anymore or god forbid even worse that he never made it home...i dont know how i would deal with that, but to be honest i guess this is something i have to decide on and to be honest i apppreicaite the feedback erole it was really good just dont know what to do whether i should keep going like this and he pops up in my mind and i dont do anything to close it or should i try to look?

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[sunndoggy8]

Part of me says that you should write and find otu what happened sexy bastard, and another part of me says that you should just leave it alone...you did all you could, went beyond the call of what you could have done, and that seems like it was enough. I guess a reason not to do so would be the disappointment you would feel if he didn't get there...sometimes not knowing is the best way to get closure about something like this, ya know?

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[sexy bastard]

I thought for a while not knowing would be the best closure
but its been almost two years and it still pops up in my head you know...and its harder cause i dont exactly remember the full name and its weird but also the dispointment is what also makes me not want to do it
i dont know

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[zathrus]

you are such a sweet guy

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[Supervixen]

Your first line is SO true it isnt funny. I always think of that- whenever I become a spoiled brat and bitch because I dont have the money for all the things I want, I think that there are a million people worse off than me and I should be grateful that I have good friends, and I have exactly what I need right now- and everything else will fall in place.

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[Aggie]

But, you don't have to. what you did, your action, your decision was the most important thing. whatever happens to him next, happens. what you did, lives in you forever. your kindness and love for another is the most important thing. damn, you did a good job there
Sexy, I agree with Erole. You don't have to follow-up because you did do all you need to do already. If it keeps popping up in your head though, you may need some kind of closure. Do you think there could be some kind of middle ground? If you found the info and wrote a letter to his family in Baltimore, would you feel better just sending it? Or do you need a reply? He could be there and just not write back. Unless you were going to call you may never know if he got it. I don't know, I'm just trying to think of different scenarios. But you need to think of the family getting invoved. What if you speak to them and he never came and it opens up a whole bunch of memories for the family? Just think about what is involved in trying to contact him. I think it was a very noble and sweet thing of you to do and wherever he is, I'm sure he's thankful for the kindness you showed him and he's happy that you went out of your way to help him! :)

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[sexy bastard]

In a sense in my mind I have the mentallity I did my part he had to takethe next step...and it does bug me...but in this aggie i think you are right about a middle I think formeto have closure wouldbe me just wrtiing them, and i f i did not get a response then i think their would be closuer and if i gota response then i might just be afriad to redad it...all day today instead of sleeping i just ben loking around my room to see if there is anything likethat I mean what are the chances of finding a piece of paper that ist two years old you know.
i dont know the thing that bugs me is it popps up into my head every now and then and I just dont want that anymore I just want to have some kind of closure to it if possible.


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[sexy bastard]

i havent slept much cause this is on my mind way to much now


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[erole]

look, you bastard...hee hee, i had to say that...if you are tossing and turning over this so much then the answer is clear - go find out what happened. maybe something is telling you to do this for a reason, a reason greater than just closure. BUT! we warned my friend, if you choose to find out what happened, be prepared for the consequences of the action you take. you may find out that he made it home, and he is well. maybe he didn't make it home. if anythng, you can get in touch with his family and learn more about who he was. maybe you were to one who gave meaning to his life by just acknowledging him. to each there is a purpose. the universe isn't entirely a place of random activity and senselessness. there is order, there is meaning, no matter how small it may be. it could have been any one of us that needed you on that day. thank you for helping all of us.


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[sexy bastard]

I have to say erole that was really some dep shit there

but i think you hit it right on the head if i decide to pursue this and try to find out i have to be ready for whatever outcome happens. I am going to try myself to see i remember his name..not proper spelling and remember maryland and his folks were living near his brother who is a doctor so i might try simple spelling research if not use the internet to look up doctors in that state....anyway i am gonna start trying to look.

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